walking,
a stranger moving from me.
a cat in space moves towards me methodically: paw over foot over paw. her stomach sways with the movement. perhaps she is smarter than me. she's asking me to define smarts.
pessimism seems to drown out the field of optimism on all fronts. maybe that's why i still smoke.
placing the love specimin in deprived conditions, devoid of light and stimulus, with a constant droning sound element, we observed the specimin crying, scratching, and shitting. bowel movements remained constant with a consistent diet. subject was observed frequently writing notes to the source of affection. very little could be assumed of the love apparition, aside from a general emotional attachment between specimin and love fodder.
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i'm waiting to find a girl that will lay in bed with me to draw portraits of each ourselves. perhaps we will not wear clothes and bedsheets will become a dirtier white because of layers of charcoal dust. we will lay and draw. when we talk, it will mostly be about ideas. abstract ideas that mean nothing to us. our responses will correspond with the portraits, the portraits that become uglier with every incantation.
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i ask the optimist: what are you looking for? yes, i know people that sit around and watch pornography habitually. if i phoned them up, the awkwardness would end engagement before it began..
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posted by that_robot @ 1:16 AM
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portraits like dorian gray. i guess maybe one would get used to the awkwardness. the friend i was talking to about this phenomenon had only discovered that people do this a year ago, that's when he joined in. he said he's still not desensitized to a lot of the shit that they are desensitized to, so he still get's grossed out sometimes, but soon he will be immune to these visuals like his peers. what i don't understand is this: do they really watch it for sport and not get bored, do they hoot and hollar or lay around eating a bag of chips perhaps with conversation, or do they watch it to make fun of the cheesy plots. i don't think it's the latter, because it sounds like the kind of porn that does not have plots. it's just people having sex, not talk, just sex. hmmm.
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