nothing. hello

lately i've been coming to terms with any and all apocalyptic dreams i've had and decided maybe they're just dreams and maybe the whole world does need to stop for a second so we can look at what we're holding in our hands and think of where we're going for just a second. perfect dreams are good ideas as are delusions and deviance, though i no longer find much comfort in thinking i may someday walk among the ruins of a dead civilization with my overcoat and gasmask. like i'd be able to last long: i've seen myself freezing to death in the woods. not especially pretty. i should probably become more macho. Macho overcoat and Macho gasmask and Macho apocalypse boy with Macho hopelessness.